First Entry
Feb. 29th, 2004 03:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kelly_chamblissI don't know if Live Journals are supposed to be like ink-blot tests, revealing the secret weirdnesses of their writers' personalities, but if they are, then mine has already said too much about me.
I can't tell you how typical it is that I should have set up an LJ almost a month ago -- and then not written a single entry. Because I am a PROCRASTINATOR. (You notice that I am not just a Procrastinator with a capital "P." When applied to me, the entire word has to be capitalized.)
True, being a procrastinator is not one of my *secret* weirdnesses. It's too obvious a part of my character to be kept hidden. I'm in my 40s, and I still end up pulling all-nighters when any kind of deadline looms, just the way I did in high school. And college. And grad school. I would have done it in elementary school, too, but my mom wouldn't let me.
I know I'm not alone in putting things off. Lots of people routinely put off until tomorrow what they should probably do today. And who can blame us? Who is eager to do unpleasant or tedious things? Besides, if you wait long enough, there's always the chance that you won't have to do whatever it is.
What perhaps IS secret about my procrastination -- or at least, what is weird about it -- is that I also put off doing things that I WANT to do. That I look forward to doing. That I know will be fun.
Why? I'm not sure. Maybe because, as a kid, I really bought into the idea that anticipation is half the fun. I mean, I used to save my Easter candy until it either petrified or my mother threw it out in fear of ants and food poisoning. It wasn't that I didn't want to eat the stuff -- but more important than eating it was the joy of knowing that it wasn't all gone. As long as the candy remained, so did the future pleasure of tasting it. And so did a little bit of the holiday itself.
Nowadays, there are books and videos that I've owned for years and am dying to read or watch. But I haven't, because then they will be all gone.
So I've put off writing in the LJ, too. Oh, sure, I've been busy, but that's just an excuse. I've put off the LJ because a) it is something to look forward to, and b) it's a bit scary, too. Frankly, you can look like an idiot in these things.
But setting up a Live Journal and then not writing in it is sort of idiotic, too.
So here goes -- my first entry.
Will it be the last? No. But I might have to look forward to the second entry for a week or three or four.
I can't tell you how typical it is that I should have set up an LJ almost a month ago -- and then not written a single entry. Because I am a PROCRASTINATOR. (You notice that I am not just a Procrastinator with a capital "P." When applied to me, the entire word has to be capitalized.)
True, being a procrastinator is not one of my *secret* weirdnesses. It's too obvious a part of my character to be kept hidden. I'm in my 40s, and I still end up pulling all-nighters when any kind of deadline looms, just the way I did in high school. And college. And grad school. I would have done it in elementary school, too, but my mom wouldn't let me.
I know I'm not alone in putting things off. Lots of people routinely put off until tomorrow what they should probably do today. And who can blame us? Who is eager to do unpleasant or tedious things? Besides, if you wait long enough, there's always the chance that you won't have to do whatever it is.
What perhaps IS secret about my procrastination -- or at least, what is weird about it -- is that I also put off doing things that I WANT to do. That I look forward to doing. That I know will be fun.
Why? I'm not sure. Maybe because, as a kid, I really bought into the idea that anticipation is half the fun. I mean, I used to save my Easter candy until it either petrified or my mother threw it out in fear of ants and food poisoning. It wasn't that I didn't want to eat the stuff -- but more important than eating it was the joy of knowing that it wasn't all gone. As long as the candy remained, so did the future pleasure of tasting it. And so did a little bit of the holiday itself.
Nowadays, there are books and videos that I've owned for years and am dying to read or watch. But I haven't, because then they will be all gone.
So I've put off writing in the LJ, too. Oh, sure, I've been busy, but that's just an excuse. I've put off the LJ because a) it is something to look forward to, and b) it's a bit scary, too. Frankly, you can look like an idiot in these things.
But setting up a Live Journal and then not writing in it is sort of idiotic, too.
So here goes -- my first entry.
Will it be the last? No. But I might have to look forward to the second entry for a week or three or four.
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Date: 2004-02-29 02:50 pm (UTC)Welcome, then!
I've given up Janeway for Lent (and am having violent withdrawl symptoms)but I look forward to reading your updates, however infrequent they may be.
Abbey